Guerrilla Hawah: Musings from India
They say what you think shall become
what is
shall become
you
in the future
the man again (returns)
with no legs
and no hands
and yet
he’s reaching out
he’s asking for …….
if i could give everything away
could i help him
if i could shed myself of all my material wealth
give it
and take his place
would that somehow
make this world
better
or
not
wanting to find out
why its so easy to forget the trails already walked down
the lessons already learned
once before
to return to the same situation and see it still
in the same way
and continue to feel the same thing
when the man
without legs
and arms
is reaching out to me
for something
anything that i can spare and give
and its
difficult to eat
when i know he’s so close
outside the window of the store
and inside deep down inside i feel
i should not buy anything unless
it will assist him with his health
i used to feel guilty when i would think about what i had and how those who were begging for a meal and simply some clean water to drink would approach me and ask for me to give to them and now… now… i don’t feel guilty, but i still feel like giving it all away. leaving this place… walking barefoot with them through the streets and sitting on the corner waiting for someone kind enough to share a piece of their existence… existence…
with me
w(o)(a)ndering
give everything away
if i could simply find the courage to take
all that i have on my possession and all that i have tucked and saved away
if i take it and gave it to
the children with no feet
the children with no parents
and still reaching
with no hands
and i gave to them
all that i was all that i am
and why, still
after all of these days and nights do i still feel
unworthy of being
the man i was born to be?
walking barefoot with them through the streets and sitting on the corner waiting for someone kind enough to share a piece of their existence… existence…
keeps me w(o)(a)ndering
if i should embrace and use the material privilege I have been given
to create a more balanced system
or would it be more honorable and effective to simply cast it away
and why, still
after all of these days and nights do i still feel
unworthy of embracing
all that you have spread before me
why sustainer of energy
after all these days and nights
do i
still feel unworthy of holding your light
not strong enough
to let go of
all the weight
that keeps me from
walking without feet
flying without wings
may you always remind me
forever